I am a Christian and a beloved child of God, my truth even when it feels otherwise. I am a member of St Andrew’s Church, Bebington – an accidental Anglican – my spiritual family where I am learning to be the best I can in my place in the body of Christ.
Other than that, I am a doctor, I am disabled after an injury in 2012, I am an alcoholic and addict sober since June 29th 2012. I married to a wonderful man in late 2013 and my only daughter was adopted in March 2013 as a result of my alcoholism.
I am in the midst of recovery – physical, emotional and spiritual, and all 3 must work together, in order for my thoughts, my feelings, and my actions to bring glory to God and a new wholeness to me.
Why blog? – I’ve been asking and pondering this for months… because there don’t seem to be that many Christians in addiction recovery and when I looked for that voice in the midst of my chaotic illness, I couldn’t hear it. No-one seemed to be saying that my God, in whom I had believed since I was saved when I was 12, had saved them from addiction. The “God of AA” wasn’t enough – I believe in a revealed God, through His Word, but I could not stop drinking. The only solution for helpless, hopeless alcoholics is a spiritual solution – for me it is the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, not only able to save me in the next life but also in this. I couldn’t find the voice of anyone who had survived through the adoption of their beloved child(ren) or anywhere to talk about those issues without judgement. I have spent months wondering if there was a need for someone to talk about these things. “Here am I, Lord. Send me”.